December 2009
19 posts
"So, he doesn't wanna have a relationship"
“Then he says things like how he feels we’re the same person inside, and if he was female he’d be me.” “But he said that he didn’t want to be in a relationship with you” ”..Yeah, and that he’d always love me.” “….And he said he didn’t wanna be in a relationship….” “Yeah, so?” Well, sometimes when...
GET OVER IT.
:)
Done with my first semester at Siena. I was pretty much as I expected it would be. Don’t really have any friends there because I commute. I should probably learn to be more outgoing. I hate how I can’t act how I think about acting in my head, “Incongruence” as the Rogerians call it. Like, I’m pretty conceited and shit not gonna lie, but when I’m around people or...
All-time favorites.
Supersonic, Morning Glory, Champagne Supernova - Oasis
God of Thunder - Kiss
The Outsider - A Perfect Circle
Nagaina, Crystal Lake - Poison the Well
Emergency Broadcast :: The End is Near - Underoath
Online Songs, Stockholm Syndrome, Man Overboard, Please Take Me Home, Roller Coaster - Blink 182
Natalie Marie And 1cc - The Spill Canvas
When the Levee Breaks - Led Zeppelin
When We Escape...
Anxiety is caused by:
Stress overload, poor diet, environmental factors, genetics, and negative thought patterns working together over time
I’m 5/5 yay
Disappointed
Yet again.
Drew her gaze toward the sky Away from her own mind And it took bites Out of her insides Til she was just a hollow shell
moar photos
Today ended up to be prettaay good. Presented in criminal justice and got an A- even thought i was pretty much shaking and read directly off my slides. Then an A on that paper. Then a 90 on my other testy. DOin it. Had a long talk with my dad which was nice and rare. He only sleeps 2 hours a night. That’s Tyler Durden status. Yuppp thats about it
I think I need new friends..
Not that I have too many as of now. But the ones I tend to hang out with when I’m in cp pretty much suck, and have not changed since high-school. In fact, I feel like I am still in high school when I hang out with them. Separately there are ok, but when all together it’s just a big annoying mess. I also feel like they don’t even really like me cuz I’m not as immature as...
“I am not afraid of the danger; if it means death, it will not be the worst of deaths-death without honor.”
Jesus, when does it end?
Phases that I go through, dazed and I’m so confused.
I can’t do this anymore. It’s just one more thing to make my life as complicated and heart-wrenching as possible, and it’s setting me over the edge. My heart is beating so fast and I’m shaking.
Been a fucking mess lately
Did so many stupid things over break that I’m really regretting. But I’m lucky nothing really bad happened. Gonna chill with the drinking for a while. Been eating way too much and today I didn’t go to school cuz I feel kinda sick..now I’m gonna get behind. My body is tired and hurts, and I’m just not feeling right. My anxiety is getting really bad also, and I need to...